I GOT TO KISS MY BABY GIRL, BRAT, ON THE CHEEK.
SHE WAS LYING IN HER HOSPITAL BED
WHEN I ARRIVED ON MONDAY
AND MY KNEES ALMOST BUCKLED WHEN I SAW HER.
ALL OF THE FEAR, UNCERTAINTY AND CONCERN
WERE WIPED AWAY
AS I CAME TO THE REALIZATION
THAT MY BRAT WAS GOING TO BE OKAY.
I KNEW WHEN I SAW HER THAT
GOD WAS ANSWERING ALL OF THE PRAYERS
SENT TO HIM.
I HAD KNOWN THAT SINCE I GOT NEWS
OF THE ACCIDENT,
BUT SEEING HER PUT A SHAKY HEART TO REST.
WE'RE ALLOWED TO HAVE A SHAKY HEART.
GOD KNOWS THAT WE SOMETIMES FEEL
UNCERTAINTY, A MOMENT OF FEAR.....
WE'RE ALLOWED TO HAVE WHAT I CALL 'MOMENTS'.
WE JUST HAVE TO KEEP THEM IN CHECK.
SEEING MY LITTLE GIRL SMILE AT ME
MADE ME FEEL SO AMAZING.
OH, HOW I HAD BEEN LIVING FOR THAT SMILE.
TO SEE HER, TO BE ABLE TO TOUCH HER,
RUB HER ARM GENTLY
AND TALK SOFTLY TO HER;
HAD ME ON MY KNEES (MENTALLY)
PRAISING MY LORD
"OH, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU..."
I WAS ABLE TO SLEEP ON A COT IN BRAT'S ROOM
ON MONDAY NIGHT.
THAT'D BE WHY I WAS NAPPING ON TUESDAY
ALONG WITH THE DRUGGED PATIENT.
THE STAFF AT ST. DAVID'S MEDICAL CENTER
IN ROUND ROCK TOOK EXCELLENT CARE OF BRAT.
THIS IS A PHOTO OF BRITTANY AND
ONE OF HER FAVORITE NURSES.
AND, I SIMPLY MUST SAY THAT BRAT WAS
AN EASY PATIENT TO NURSE.
SHE IS SUCH A BRAVE YOUNG WOMAN.
MY GIFT TO BRAT ON THIS VISIT WAS
A DARLING PICTURE OF HER AND HER FIANCE, WILL.
THAT WAS ON DAY ONE.
DAY TWO I TAPED UP THE NOT-SO-PRECIOUS,
BUT GUARANTEED TO MAKE HER LAUGH OUT LOUD,
HAIRY PHOTO OF HER AND WILL.
IT WAS SUCH A BLESSING TO HEAR HER LAUGH.
BRAT IS NOW AT A REHAB FACILITY,
STILL NEEDING OUR PRAYERS.
SHE'S ON HER WAY TO BEING WHOLE AGAIN.
AND FOR THAT, I PRAISE GOD.
I PRAISE HIM THE WHOLE DAY LONG
BECAUSE HE HAS MY DARLING BRITTANY
IN HIS HANDS.
I love you all,
Jan
